Scrutiny and indifference

I yearn for a time when I don't need approvals from people to live my life the way I want....to do the things I want....it frustrates me at times that even though everyone may agree with something they still feel the need to go over everything I say with a fine comb and suggest how best to do things or even not to do them. I need simplicity....I need this to work on its own and not have a crowd of people interfere.....I know that it will happen....there's no avoiding the interference.

This was supposed to be simple and now I feel claustrophobic....overwhelmed....confused by the indifference shown at times and the positivity at the other times. Yes I don't live in greys a lot....especially when it comes to things like this....in these I believe in black and white....yes or no....care or indifference. Why is it so hard to just pick one? I try going with the flow but the flow changes speed all of a sudden and I am caught unaware and by the time I catch up to it...it slows back down and I have to again struggle to maintain pace.