It's hard

I can't believe it's only been a month! It seems so much longer now that she's been gone but yes it's only been a month. Every day something small will remind me of the void she has left in all our lives...every day I find something that makes me miss her and regret all the times I wasted not being close to her.

I carry my own mementos....I took her phone with me because of pure practicality reasons but every day I open it and go through all the pictures and all the videos she saved. I can still smell her on that phone but it's fading...soon another memory trigger will be gone.

Perhaps dealing with all this is best described by someone who said to me "it's hard"..........