Torment

I thought I was spoilt till I saw this side of you.....I could never imagine you being the stereotypical one who wants nothing but the imposition of her will. I really wish I had seen this in your personality before....back when there was time. Now all I can do is be patient and hope God finds me a way out of this misery. I can't see a way out.....

I'd give anything to have the last 2 years back.....so maybe I could do things all over again and save myself from this torment. I imagine how things may have been with someone else and that's basically the only escape I have from this mess.....I can't keep deluding myself too long now.

Strange weddings

I hate going to weddings on weekdays......I mean the family involved has a day off the next day but we don't so why must we suffer the next day due to lack of sleep? It's just totally unfair! Although, when they put up a show for you to watch then it does sort of compensate :p I attended this "disco wedding" last night.....strobe lights on the stage, fog simulators, disco ball and even 70s disco music for a theme! I can admire the effort that they put into it but I really do question the reasoning! But hey....whatever makes them happy :)

Sad goodbyes

Today's the day that a very close friend of mine moves away forever. There's so much I wanted to say but none of that would fir neatly into an sms and besides would probably get too emo for my own good. So I suppose this is the best outlet for me to say all that I couldn't. It hasn't been too long since we first met....just over 3 years I guess but in that time I came closer to you than I did to most other people. You understood me and knew how to make me understand and that's a quality I don't find in many people. The times spent with you were not all good....I suppose no friendship is devoid of some downs but the good times were infact great! Those memories will always make me smile and I will never forget the experiences we shared. There's so much to say but you already know :)