No fitting title :p

Tomorrow is the first big launch that I've done all by myself! :) I didn't wanna say it 'cos maybe it sounds vain and all but I'm proud of me! haha Ofcourse I could use a few weeks sleep to put off all the stress I've taken but I suppose that's for later.....

They're opening up a 3D cinema here today I think....I'm just thinking that it's gonna become one of those social hang out spots where you MUST be seen rather than a place to go and watch good movies. I think I'll wait for the "eager" bunch to get it out of their system first and then go. 

I'm in my zombie state now.....this is where I ramble the most :p but I do love this state so much! I'm so often here that I kinda got used to it a while back. I hate people who are so risk averse that they let life pass by without any thrill.

Laziness

I finally got to watch the final episode of a series that I had been watching way back like maybe 10 years ago....it was weird to finally get closure over the series after so many years but good nonetheless :) I'm not going to name the series 'cos its really corny but hey it was 10 years ago and I was bored at that time :p So why did it take me 10 years to finally get the last episode of a series I had been watching everyday?....well....too much going on and ofcourse laziness :D

Thinking about that time does make me wonder where I would've been had I not made some good decisions and some bad ones too....I'd say that was like a defining time period for me....where I settled on a direction and cut out others. Would I do anything differently if given another chance? Hard to say......

Imaginary

Someone asked me recently what the title of this blog meant....plus there were quite a few guesses in there to make me think I need to clarify before the guesses get more ridiculous :p and weird :D

Imaginary is the title of one of my favourite songs by Evanescence....the song just takes me away someplace where I can be happy and lost..... :) :)

Milestone

End of the year vacation time and I'm stuck at work! I so need a vacation but I can't take one now till the next 3 - 4 months! It's weird being one of the only few people left in the office....sometimes it's fun but I'd rather not have been part of this group.

I found an old picture yesterday of an event I attended with Z, it's an amazing picture with everyone laughing and it reminded me so much of what I had lost over time. I'd give anything for a do-over....but hey let's not mull in what could have been.

Yesterday I achieved another career milestone....crossed level X before age 30! Yayy! :) So even if my personal life is down the drain, atleast work wise I'm on track :)

Uncertainty + random

I hate uncertainty.....just plain hate it. Especially when it comes to my professional life I just think it's the worst situation I can put myself into. I have 2 very interesting choices.....both have their plus points and both have their drawbacks. Both will take me into very different directions for the future. At this stage in my life, I have to pick one....there won't be any turning back from this one....atleast not an easy one. The whole deal makes me irritated and cranky and I really hate that but deal with it.....

Also, I hate people who shove their cell phones right into their mouths when they talk! It's irritating! I suppose we've all had phones long enough now that people would learn how to use them.....
Apologies for this rant but I ended up talking to a guy during this post who did this and just ticked me off.

Mementos

Over the years I realized that I have kept very few mementos from moments that defined a point in my life. There is one thing that I have kept from a recent phase.....a cookie jar. You brought me home baked cookies in it more than a year ago and I can still remember their taste....divine! Those are long gone ofcourse and I refill it with cookies I buy myself but the jar will always remind me of you. You gave me a lot! And I know it ended so badly but the small moments in the whole time meant so much to me.

This cookie jar will always remind me of your bubbliness, your craziness.......YOU!

Loss of innocence

Do you remember the day when you lost your childhood ability of imagination? For some odd reason I remember it very clearly! I remember the exact day when after coming home from school I could not pick up on the imaginary game play that I had left the day before. It didn't even occur to me at that time that it was a little strange....that a major part of childhood was now over. Over time things changed more and more but I suppose that was the point when childhood ended. I also remember exactly where I left off the day before it all ended.....I do miss it.

From then on it was all different.....no more innocence.....no more simplicity. No more small things to make me happy.......and this is where it all led to......

Winter

I love winter.....have always done so. For some reason to me it seems peaceful....more so in the evenings when it gets dark early. I like taking walks by myself and feeling the cool wind on my face....it's very serene to me.

I remember years ago when I'd be up late and look out during cold winter nights....the silence was amazing. No humming of air conditioners meant that every small sound could be heard so easily. I so miss those days now!