Self advise sessions of the past

I passed by a familiar street today and asked remembered an event there which leads me to ask a question:

What do you do when you realise that some of the most important conversations that you've had have not been with an actual person? Do you walk off to seek help or pat yourself on the back for being a good consultant yourself? Or is that just sad?

Ofcourse the pat on the back depends on how things turned out. To this day, I don't really know how to answer this one....

I'm glad I have someone now who can play this role for me and actually does a great job at it.

Questioning lessons

Sometimes God puts really good people through very difficult times to test them and strengthen their faith.....well atleast this is what the grown ups always told us when we were young and went through something bad. I see bad things happen to a very good person and I wonder why God would make such a great and wonderful person go through such difficult times. It's hard to straightforwardly believe in what the grown ups told us when you see this happening to someone you care about so strongly. This is when you start questioning all the lessons they taught you.

I do all I can to keep this person strong and maintain her cheery and delightful take on life....but I worry that I'm not doing a great job. Ironic that someone as fed up as me has to be a pillar for someone who has given me strength and resilience through so much.

Remnants of conscience

So when you've done a bad deed so many times that you can't even count properly....why is it that doing another makes you wince at the thought? I suppose it's a good sign that I wince...perhaps it means that deep down I do realize the wrongs I do.....but why can't I learn to avoid them altogether? This question's been asked before but unfortunately I don't have the answer. Maybe the remnants of my conscience are limited to afterthoughts only.

Now that I've entrenched myself in a tough spot....I suppose I have no choice left but to wait it out and try my best to derive an outcome that is hopefully going to be good in the long run.Maybe a part of me knows better than to rush head first into situations that are difficult to say the least.....but I'm pretty sure this part is never really heard when these situations come up.......

Holiday ramble

Going through some of the movies in the old collection makes you realize that they really don't make great movies anymore.....also the nostalgia that they bring about is just amazing. Thinking about old times....simple times...times when the future was full of opportunity and one had optimism about how things would be great and different. Not that I'm not grateful for all I've accomplished so far....I'm quite certain that in some years I will look back on these days with nostalgia :) such is the way of things.

I don't like plastic people....though I have quite a few around me....I even tried my best to change one....to cut through all the plastic and reach in to the human deep inside...what a disaster that was! I wish I could just snap my fingers and make my things in the non work life of mine okay now....I'm tired of all the games and all the drama.

Refreshing.....

In this day and age can it actually be true that one such as you can remain so naive and innocent? Your childlike worry and dreams of fantasy lands are refreshingly wondrous but I worry about letting your illusions shatter. There are things in this world....things within me....that you cannot even begin to comprehend....things that do not fit into your simplistic view of the world.

Simplicity is something I always sought in my life....you bring it in abundance. I suppose I owe it to myself to try this route also....everything else has pretty much blown up in my face so I'm keeping my fingers crossed that this doesn't.