Delayed decisions

I came across a song today by chance that took me all the way back to 95....scatman! Though today the song seems weird...it was the tune around town back then. I remember the first time I heard it was on a flight while going for vacations. 1995...seems like an eternity ago now. I had thought / decided back then that I would not be living here for long....so finally after so many years I guess I am back on track. This is one decision that is perhaps not being discarded but was only delayed

Serenity of the sea

I love the feeling of seawater slowly coming up to my feet and rising up and up. I've always loved the sea...the waves crashing down have a serenity about them that I cannot find anywhere else. For some reason, I always think clearer when I'm surrounded by the crashing waves...everything seems to be making sense. Even situations and people as complicated as some can become clear there.

A couple of weeks left now....I seem to be sorting out all the issues exvept one...despite all the good advice I have I am unable to set my path straigh and solve this issue. I wonder what I'm waiting for....or maybe I'm not waiting for anything....it is perhaps in my nature now to keep atleast a few confusions around me in my life.

Home

As my date of departure draws nearer....I find myself thinking of how I will miss this city. Every place I go to brings back memories of events...people...times. All of these, for better or worse, shaped who I am and what I am. I have lived abroad on several occassions and many times on my own also but having to begin completely anew and completely independently is something very different. I am not going to put on the show that most people do and say that I will never look back...I will miss this city...this is my home and no matter where I end up...this always will be my home.