Perspectives

It's so simple for them to see their own mistakes being made by others and the ramifications of those mistakes. But when it comes to their own behavior and expectations....they are simply blind :(

Homebound

Home again after a long time....seems like ages since I've been here. I've started to not think of this city as my home...never thought it'd take only 6 months for me to settle in the new place. But despite all that, I miss all the little things here...big things ofcourse but the little things too :)

Explore

I think the best trips are the ones where you have no plan and you just go and explore! I had that sort of a day today....drove to a different city....got there and realized we didn't really know what there was to do there so just explored :) It was a great day!

I think I thought I saw you try.......

Relatively better traits

I was convinced that there was a tendency in me that was despicable and could have quite easily have been called cold....then I came across a person who made me realize just how far away I was from both those things. I suppose in this case, I was harder on myself than I ought to have been. Or maybe my self judgement was fine and some people are just too far gone to ever be brought back.....that is the point I need to be weary of.

Course correction

When you have digressed so far away from where you wanted to be that the original path seems faded and blurry....you know you need a drastic shift to get back on the right path. I feel like I'm at that point now where if I don't course correct, I will head towards a place I don't want to be...a place that may seem fun for now but has no future

Redux

So I suppose fate is not yet done using me as a punching bag......this seems so familiar....

I wonder when I'll be done with repeating the same cycles of life and finally being out of a constant mess.....I'm so tired of it all now

Dark hearted

It's been ages now yet I still find my thoughts turn to you at times. Like a bad habit...a guilty pleasure...a dark secret that somehow brings me a thrill. The song during that movie....whenever it plays I remember each moment...I admit it was a horrid mistake but a mistake that is burnt into my memory and refuses to give up its afterglow. That was 3 years ago now....but its still as vivid now as it was on the next day.

It was not meant to be....maybe that's a good thing....for no matter how it went...we are both dark hearted souls with a strong touch of evil. If you feel I wronged you then you did the very same to me....does that make us even? Shouldn't I then not think of it at all?