A life not normal

"Who else do you know is living the way we are?" - a question asked by a close friend....a question that took way too long to answer and we both knew it didn't bode well for the path we've both chosen. I still can't think of someone...are we really that far from normal? Is it even possible to come back when you've gone so far out?......

A mix

When you think of all the days gone by....what do you remember? Do you think of the fun filled days with family / friends where life seemed full of joy and full of hope or do you think of the days that left you wondering how much more you could take? Perhaps it's a mixture of both that comes to everyone's mind....for life is a mixture of both these types of moments. And now that you find yourself so far away from where you had imagined....it's just these memories that you hold on to when you're all by yourself and these memories that flood into your mind when you least want them to. It's not easy coping with the fact that you are now living with what you once feared the most.....being alone. The only thing keeping you sane is what's not good for you.

Stopping point

Please don't misinterpret my questioning for being thankless. I am thankful for all the changes I have had in the last 1 year but regarding one aspect of my life, I just wonder how long I have to go through turmoil. It seems endless but there has to be a point where it stops....I can't believe that such a point doesn't exist. I guess all I can do is wander around till I find that stopping point.