Reminders of weaknesses

Well hello again my guilty pleasure...its been a while but no matter how much I try I can't get away from you. You sneak back into my life again and again and pull me away from the normality I crave for. I wonder what it'll take for me to finally pull away from you....I've been trying for years now but nothing works. Every time I think I'm out you descend on me and remind me that I have no control over you.

Give in...but not too often

Temptation is a horrible thing to fight....eventually I know I give in...its something I've been through before and I know my weaknesses. The trick is to not let it win too often.

Overt subtlety

Don't you love to see people trying their best to be subtle but at the same time trying hard not to let their point be missed :) I call it overt subtlety and I love playing along like I don't get it....playing along to the point where they have to throw subtlety out the window and finally be open :)

Averse to change

I am not the sort you can change easy....trying overtly would only make me begin to hide myself back behind the walls I built over years.

Familiar fear

This fear is familiar....it seems not so long ago that I experienced this fear and here I am yet again. Last time the fear was well justified...this time, there's strong hope that the fear would be baseless.

Past or future

What is more important? Expectations of the past or expectations of the future? When you are caught between picking one of them how do you justify your decision?