26 years now...today. It was 26 years ago today that I saw you last....the next time ofcourse I saw you, there was just a shell left of you, the sparkle in your eyes, the warmth in your hug....it was all gone. I have tried my best to live the way you would have wanted me to live....to try to be the man you would be proud of. Perhaps I made some headway, perhaps I failed....you made it look so easy; even in the days when I know (now) you were under immense stress.
I still don't accept it at some level....I still don't understand why it was necessary. Perhaps my lack of acceptance is why I can never talk about you to people close to me. I've achieved a lot in life for which I am very thankful but everyday I question why you had to go.....and would you be proud of who I've become if you were still here. I remember all the great times...I remember all the warmth...I haven't felt that warmth in 26 years now and I yearn for it.
I still don't accept it at some level....I still don't understand why it was necessary. Perhaps my lack of acceptance is why I can never talk about you to people close to me. I've achieved a lot in life for which I am very thankful but everyday I question why you had to go.....and would you be proud of who I've become if you were still here. I remember all the great times...I remember all the warmth...I haven't felt that warmth in 26 years now and I yearn for it.
