Sometimes it feels like I'm drowning under incessant waves - that's how best I can describe my state of mind most of these days. I do feel that my tendency to keep going forward regardless of the situation makes things worse as I keep piling on pressure. Pressure that inevitably needs to be released sometime; unfortunately I don't know how to reduce this buildup.
I used to be able to deal with this kind of stress before or is it that I don't realise that the type or amount has changed over the years?
The only time my mind is at peace is when I run, it's the most amazing feeling! I suppose in a way the running is keeping me sane. Otherwise, there is a lot of anger being built up, a lot of irritability....a lot of negativity.
I won't give up, I can't! I've come too far to give up now and I have the futures of 2 other people dependent on me so I must beat on...boats against the current.
