It's been a while now but perhaps not long enough. I suppose there is no time long enough to lessen the constant reminders I still get. Small things, small occurrences take me back to happier times with her. There are so many reminders of past happy times, times that seem so long ago. I will always question whether I ever did enough especially near the end. Yes, I changed a lot once I knew of the situation but what about before that? I own up to it, I was not good to her, I left her alone. This will eat at me forever.
