Conflicted

So I've been spending a few days in the interior of the country....things have changed a lot in the past 2 years....a lot of advancement. Okay well I'm basing this on the number of brand stores that have opened up but I suppose that's a pretty okay yardstick. I'm staying at a hotel overlooking a very famous barrage and the view is really amazing....except for the 6 lizzards that keep crowding my window :s

But despite all that I love interacting with the people out here....lives are simpler...problems aren't the superficial ones you hear of in the main cities. I'm conflicted though...I've been travelling almost a week...been from 4 celcius to 18 celcius and now at 34 celcius all within the same week......so I really do want to get back home to my own bed......but I don't want to at the same time. I know what's waiting for me....more fights...arguments and drama!

I want things to be okay.....I really need happiness now.....I'm tired and I need to sleep....sleep without worrying of what next you will grab on to and make an issue out of.

And again I got a call from .... well I was going to write friend but I'm not really sure where we are at this point.....the things she says really confuse me at times....what is the point of being so nice when you'll call me in 5 days and start screaming for how things happened.