So the long weekend is finally over....although I had thought it would be a drag, I didn't really feel it slip by so soon. The first 3 days were ofcourse spent with family and relatives.....then the next with friends. The final one I spent meeting new 'acquaintances'. Quite unnerving I must say....I mean for all the confidence I show in everything else in life, I freak out when it comes to these things. I freaked out and shopped....i always shop when I get very anxious or when I'm extremely nervous.
Turns out my anxiety was quite unfounded...it went well. Though what I was afraid of did happen....the after reaction when the person freaked out and went into a nosedive mood. It completely drives me away....drives me away to others....and that is what I'm afraid of. Of being driven so far away that I don't have the energy to come back to what we developed. At this point I'm close to being in that spot....almost there....I don't like this.
The whole week off has made this office routine so difficult....I'm half asleep already and the day hasn't even started. God how will I get through the whole day?
Turns out my anxiety was quite unfounded...it went well. Though what I was afraid of did happen....the after reaction when the person freaked out and went into a nosedive mood. It completely drives me away....drives me away to others....and that is what I'm afraid of. Of being driven so far away that I don't have the energy to come back to what we developed. At this point I'm close to being in that spot....almost there....I don't like this.
The whole week off has made this office routine so difficult....I'm half asleep already and the day hasn't even started. God how will I get through the whole day?
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