A quarter of a century is a long time....long enough, many would say to overcome the harshest of memories and face the toughest of realities. They say 25 years is enough to forget most things...to let memories fade....but from the way I feel none of this is true.
25 years on and I still remember each and every detail like it was yesterday. The shock, the breakdown, the sadness. So much has changed but not the way I feel about this day. Confusion, anger, denial, fear....all dark feelings. I wonder at times whether this will ever change....judging by what's happened so far it seems tough that it will.
I don't know how to express myself much on this subject....I've never really dealt with it. The way I was brought up we were taught to store away these thoughts and feelings...am I now expected to let them out?
25 years on and I still remember each and every detail like it was yesterday. The shock, the breakdown, the sadness. So much has changed but not the way I feel about this day. Confusion, anger, denial, fear....all dark feelings. I wonder at times whether this will ever change....judging by what's happened so far it seems tough that it will.
I don't know how to express myself much on this subject....I've never really dealt with it. The way I was brought up we were taught to store away these thoughts and feelings...am I now expected to let them out?
Always always always let it out. I've seen the horrible consequences when u don't, in my parents...
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