Staying put

I remember how much I searched for companionship at one point in my life....I searched for the right person and felt that the right time was approaching. A lot of emotional distress later....I find myself running away from any sort of commitment now. There have been so many disappointments that I'm honestly quite afraid of going through another. I see people around me settling and getting engrossed in a new phase of their lives but there's a part of me that does not want to move into that phase any more.

There's also the thought that if so many things do go wrong so many different times, then maybe this is a sign that I'm supposed to stay away from that phase of life. The urge to stay put is too great right now....