Forgive....

Forgive me for I have sinned...even when I knew what I was doing was wrong and would hurt people. I played games over and over....repeated patterns and mistakes that ended up hurting those who I had at one point cared about. It's not that I wasn't aware of what I was doing or what it would end in....I knew exactly what all these games would lead to. I still know....yet I still play them. Forgive me for this, I fear, is a part of my nature that I cannot change. It is the one thing that I loathe about me but yet the thrill I get from it is indescribable.

I know what I must do...I know I must put an end to these games once and for all....but I don't see that happening soon.....so forgive me....all affected by my tendency to play