What may have been

Last night I had a strange dream about J...it was back in school and we were just hanging out....talking like we always did. I really do miss that whole time. Things were so much simpler back then....I remember the long afternoons after school where we'd just hang out and talk about everything and nothing. In the back of my mind I fear that it was the best chance I had for happiness but then we had both decided that nothing could come of it so why worry about it. Frankly I don't think we even properly said goodbye ever....just switched onto a different part of our lives.

Now when I talk to her it's so weird....she has a full life with kids and family and it's like we're worlds apart....I suppose everyone adapts to the situation that they are put into...I am ofcourse happy for her because she seems happy. It was a wonderful 5 years that I will always remember....

But isn't it wonderful to dream of what may have been.....