It's that time again....time when I feel overwhelmed....staying up till the early hours of the morning....watching the break of dawn. It's like a cycle, I come back to this place every few years and start wondering which direction I can turn my life towards so that maybe things can at one point hopefully get better and I find some of the happiness I now vaguely remember having once. That point is there in my dreams....I try my best to grasp at it but even there I fail. maybe that happiness is just meant to stay out of reach now. If so, even if I believe so....then what hope is left?
What is life now? A day to day crawl....trying to just make it through the day without having to face the fact that everything you once thought of is now slowly becoming out of reach? I don't like being sad....I put on the fake plastic smile for the fake plastic groups I see daily but for how long? If there's a test in all this.....a test of faith.....then this test has run far too long. Everybody deserves to be let out of the test room eventually.....
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2v8Ms5lG9X8
What is life now? A day to day crawl....trying to just make it through the day without having to face the fact that everything you once thought of is now slowly becoming out of reach? I don't like being sad....I put on the fake plastic smile for the fake plastic groups I see daily but for how long? If there's a test in all this.....a test of faith.....then this test has run far too long. Everybody deserves to be let out of the test room eventually.....
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2v8Ms5lG9X8
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