That sound of agonal gasps, the coldness of her hands and feet, that last breath that seemed to be deeper and then just paused.....none of these leave my thoughts.
Every morning I wake up and check my phone out of habit but that message isn't there anymore.
Life moves on, everyone moves on but the memories remain to haunt you forever. I know I should think of the happier times but somehow my thoughts go back to that night and also to all the things I should have done and said when there was time to say them. I maintained a persona of strength and emotionlessness and then when I did tell her how much she had meant to me I think she never heard me.
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