Drowning in depths

I don't really know how to describe this feeling....a sense of emptiness...a sense of loss....a sense of sadness. As time goes on slowly, I think the realisation kicks in a bit more every day and the sense of loss grows. I am reminded again and again of the fact that she isn't there anymore and I have no parents now. Just writing that made me pause.....it is a strong statement and a very strong emotional connotation. 

I don't really know how to cope with this loss....I'm not saying that I am unable to function but rather things move on as they will but inside I feel like a part of my life is missing. I suppose even though I was thousands of miles away from her, I always felt that she was around to care for me and to love me. It's that feeling that seems to be a black hole now. In moments of being alone I still do break down....I still remember that moment....it's haunting.