It's not easy to see someone who has been independent for 35 years suddenly reliant on others for even the smallest things. Basic everyday life functions now require the help of others and you see this person go from being a strong independent personality to one that is a shell of their former self. Life is harsh....it can turn the tables on you in ways you can't ever expect.
I spent 35 years of my life seeing my mother as a source of strength, she taught me the value of hard work and that you do whatever you can to try to improve the lives of those dependent on you. She gave up her life fully for me 35 years ago and there's no way I could ever repay that. When she held my hand and asked me to forgive her for being a bad mother, I couldn't hold on to the facade of strength but I couldn't let her see me break down. I did later on but not in front of her as I need to make sure she believes she raised a strong son.
I want to see her suffering end.....I don't know what that means or how that happens but I can't see her suffer.
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