10 years ago substance abuse was an activity for fun......now, it's a way to pass the evenings at home so I don't have to deal with the reality that comes at me like a freight train.
It's not that I enjoy it....far from it. With my background I know what all of this is doing to my brain....but the only other alternative I have is to be totally aware and then face the fact that you will never be happy and never let me be happy. We already live like we're 50.....this is so not how it was meant to be.
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